I feel sorry for all the girls out there who think their man is faithful when he’s being a skank nasty with some random bitch he met that night. Or even worse, hooking up with his ex girlfriend. there are so many girls who genuinely love their boyfriends, every thing about them, and what do these guys do? they turn around and betray the one girl that loves them. That would do anything to make them happy. I’ve been one of these girls, and then again I’ve been the ex girlfriend he was hooking up with too. In my defense, I didn’t know he had a girl until it was too late. But that’s beside the point. I feel like no one respects relationships anymore, and it’s getting harder and harder to believe in love when it barely even exists around me. I’m losing it… Entirely just unraveling. I don’t know what I am anymore. Who I am… I may be poised and cold on the outside but on the inside I’m unraveling. Fast. And I can’t stop it

The only thing I want in the entire world is to love someone and have them love me back… To be emotionally and physically tied to someone. My lifestyle is catching up to my heart. My head can keep pushing it away and telling me that it’s just fun. But my heart is still looking for someone to trust. Whenever it comes to matters of my mind and heart, my mind wins but my heart won’t ever let my mind forget how stupid it is…